Tell me how to be perfect..

... because I can't.

Sedikit-sedikit lama-lama menjadi bukit

Walaupun sedikit...
saya sudah mulai menulis lagi :)

Mainan baru...

Baru dateng nih kamera dari Astrid, Lomo pertamaku Disderi 2 lens (bisa disebut Lomo nggak sih jenis ini?). Mine is white, plastic, super cute!

Masih belum pinter makenya, bahkan belum beli roll filmnya dan mulai memotret.. but it's supposedly super fun! Mau beli yang tipe frogeye, diana, fisheye dan lain-lain tapi muahalll. Dan karena saya tipe pembosan yang suka beli lalu lupa tuh barang eksis, lalu akhirnya dijual kembali, saya belum rela merogoh dompet lagi demi kamera imut nan lucu tersebut. Jadi, mainan eksperimental pertamanya jatuh pada Disderi 2 lensa yang, jika saya benar memakaianya dan gak gerak-gerak saat menekan shutter, akan menghasilkan dua foto sequence dalam satu frame.

Mungkin ada yang mau ngasih kamera Aryca? Hahaha :P

(poll) new hair?

Current state of hair: disarray - between light brown and black, long and reaching my back, messy, between curls and straight locks. I don't really know for sure.

Desperately need to make an appointment with my hairdresser!

Polling!

Should I go with:

long silky super straight hair?

Pros: I will experience long hair after growing it out for more than a year. Straight hair looks good on me.
Cons: Too long. My mom keeps complaining about it.

cropped hair with long layers on the front and short on the nape of the neck?

Pros: it will supposedly look chic. On the magazine.
Cons: I don't know if it'll suit my round face. I've also been stuck with bob style for 16 years straight, except for the one time my mom made it a foolish copy of Demi Moore''s hair.

medium length, possibly dyed brown, blue black or ash

Pros: hmmm. It looks pretty simple and classic. Easy to take care of. I look great, with cropped layers that aren't too thin.
Cons: Sometimes it's too boring for me. I've also had this same style of hair for years.

short and curly hair

Pros: I've never tried it before.
Cons: I am not a good risk taker. Plus, I'll have to spend more cash curling it.

Please please vote! :)

Thank you!

My vampire type

I find this rather creative...

Fed up princess

Your father, the vampire that turned you, is the ruler of your Coven. That makes you a princess and, he hopes, the next ruler. But of course, you are subjected to intense training every day. You already feel POWERFUL, you have already pushed your human memories AWAY, you already run FASTER, can lift MORE, can see FARTHER, and you are, of course, more BEAUTIFUL than any other before you. But of course, you must be PERFECT. And can have no ties, no lovers. You can only feed from the best, you can't even play with your food first. You feel like doing something, every fiber of your being, every ounce of your vampire mind, wants to do something about this, NEEDS to do something. Didn't they know this would happen? One day the urgeto be FREE will be too much to contain, one day you will have to obay that urge. One day, SOON, you will KILL THEM ALL. Gladly.

Talking about the color of your aura..

The colour of your aura is gold!

We don't need a psychic to tell us that you're giving off a Gold vibe. You couldn't ask for a better colour - a glistening gold aura is as good as it gets. A lively blend of yellow and orange, gold people are happy, playful, energetic, sensitive, and generous. Always up for adventure, you'd give a friend in need the shirt off your back. You're spiritual, too - all those halos in old paintings aren't coloured gold by coincidence. Almost childlike in the carefree, joyful way you live your life, you're popular and outgoing with your large circle of friends. Chances are you're so full of light and energy that you sometimes find it hard to sit still and chill out. Instead, you're constantly looking for excitement, no matter how risky or impulsive the occasion. Happy-go-lucky and always laughing, you truly are as good as gold.

The thing is, I'm not so sure I'm the golden kid :D

My whole life summarized in one cabinet

I had a horrible day so I took it out on cleaning. I cleaned the apartment, I took care of my sick mother, and before dinner I sat in my room and thought that I should get things cleaned up. It's the new year, after all.

I took out some childhood stuffs from big boxes in my room and began rearranging them. I was fascinated every time I opened those trunks. It was like finding a treasure of my favorite, most loved things from forever ago. Whenever I did it, I got glimpses of the girl I used to be - this little girl with teen angst, acute mood swings, but she was actually simple. She thought life was complicated, her feelings were intricate, her thoughts sensitive. She put her thoughts into words, as I found old diaries, beginning from the little books with latches of locks, hardcover books and hardbound leather journals, school exercise books made into diaries with colorful wrappers and personal mural cut out from magazines.. and I found lots of stories. I made up stories about first loves, I did so many murals in almost every journal book, I doodled, I drew, I chatted with myself, I told my books my deepest secrets. I cried, I laughed, I felt pain, I lost friendships, I was broken hearted, I was depressed, I was lonely, I was cheerful, I was fun.

It took me a long time to ponder on those stuffs. Memories are both bitter and sweet. You don't expect them to be good all the time. As I looked on, I knew I had been both hurt and happy.

In the end, I packed them up in little boxes neatly. I collected every single article I got published. I kept letters, cards and messages of love. I buried old manuscripts, which have been printed and sent to publishers. I took up stories, and continued printing sets of published items so that I could keep them as memento. I summarized my life in one closet space, filling them with good and bad things, because pierced together, they make me what I am today.

and I should live on. Create more memories.

New Year's Eve Party 2008

Three years ago I spent it watching a midnight screening of Memoirs of a Geisha.

Two years ago I spent it alone, watching fireworks from my bedroom window and complaining because the noise made me unable to sleep till three a.m.

A year ago we went to a friend's birthday party at a local club, watching the world blur, a couple of alcohol, a kiss sneaked in.

This year, I spent it with good friends;

a decision
buying fireworks together
being late for the party
getting a phone call about an emergency accident before the barbecue
waiting for friends from the emergency room in the hospital
cooking my first teppanyaki dinner
playing silly games on Wii till nearly dawn
zooming our way in the empty highway
and wishing you a happy new year

may uncertainties turn to good things
may the future be a bright one
may the good things never come to an end

Di pergantian tahun baru..

Saya membereskan folder lagu, foto dan data di komputer lalu membuat backup.

Mencoba bangun siang karena semalam baru pulang jam 4 pagi tapi terbangun karena kram kaki dan SMS yang tidak hentinya masuk.

Santai-santai dan berencana balas dendam dengan menonton DVD dan baca buku suka-suka karena akhirnya editing buku ketiga sudah selesai tepat waktu (cuma perlu proofreading sekaliii lagi setelah puluhan proofreading sebelumnya).

Bersenang-senang.

Berencana untuk tidak membuat rencana untuk hari ulang tahun saya minggu depan.

Tidur siang yang banyak, midnight DVD yang banyak, dan bangun siang yang banyak juga.

Menikmati sisa liburan ini sebaik-baiknya, karena nanti harus mulai pekerjaan baru dan tidak ada libur panjang lagi.

Oh ya, selamat tahun baru semuanya :)

Christmas

I missed the mistletoe and the old Christmas movies on TV
I missed classic songs on the radio
I missed the scent of the church, the sounds of choir
I missed the quiet rings of bells
the school events
the gifts exchange
the giant Christmas trees
the decorations
the best time of the year
the special feelings

I missed writing to Santa Claus
I missed imagining what presents I would get

but this year..
I'm grateful all the same

Merry Christmas
Merry Christmas
may peace be in your heart