” I, with a deeper instinct, choose a man who compels my strength, who makes enormous demands on me, who does not doubt my courage or my toughness, who does not believe me naive or innocent, who has the courage to treat me like a woman.”
- Anais Nin -
The Official Blog of Winna Efendi
Selasa, 26 Januari 2010
Senin, 25 Januari 2010
:at the crossroads:
My life has always been at crossroads. It is extremely rare that I know exactly what I want in life. I'm almost always consumed by emotions such as anger, curiosity, confusion - all of which contribute nothing and are powered by my insecurity and uncertainty about my choices.
I've had chances and choices, most of which I neglect because of my risk aversion tendencies. I always fear getting hurt, getting blistered, losing (trust, love, people, things, money, freedom) that I position myself as having no choice. Perhaps that is why I never learn. People who learn are those who have been through difficult things, not those who thwart problems in the other direction or ducking, evading, barely making it possible for them to learn something from their problems.
I'm that person that ducks. I'm too busy ducking to realize why.
He just makes me realize that.
I'm now at another crossroad - I'm not sure what I am doing. And instead of running away, I think I'm going to stick around now. Just in case.
I should be the one who's in control of my own life, and every condition involved in it.
Another mission - if I don't know what I want, I should be on a journey to find it.
It's going to be a long and tough journey, but it should be worth it.
I have someone by my side, anyways :)
I've had chances and choices, most of which I neglect because of my risk aversion tendencies. I always fear getting hurt, getting blistered, losing (trust, love, people, things, money, freedom) that I position myself as having no choice. Perhaps that is why I never learn. People who learn are those who have been through difficult things, not those who thwart problems in the other direction or ducking, evading, barely making it possible for them to learn something from their problems.
I'm that person that ducks. I'm too busy ducking to realize why.
He just makes me realize that.
I'm now at another crossroad - I'm not sure what I am doing. And instead of running away, I think I'm going to stick around now. Just in case.
I should be the one who's in control of my own life, and every condition involved in it.
Another mission - if I don't know what I want, I should be on a journey to find it.
It's going to be a long and tough journey, but it should be worth it.
I have someone by my side, anyways :)
Selasa, 29 Desember 2009
2009: Lost and Found
2009 is a year when:
- I don't update my blogs as much as I'd like.
- I publish three novels in a row and get sick just as much because of the deadlines (and cheer three times louder when they hit the shelves).
- I go through an emotional turmoil.
- I grow a back bone and then some.
- I make adult decisions.
- I decide to go in search of myself and discover a lot of things in the process.
- I try to figure out what it is I want in life, relationships, career, and myself.
- I let other people know that what we expect is sometimes unexpected.
- I break hearts and get my heart broken over and over again.
but then trying to love like I've never been hurt before.
- I finally decide deadlines aren't worth it and that I need to create my own pace. Thus, the long absence and the break.
- I gain weight
and take up tennis lessons. and stop.
- I don't meet a lot of new people but maintain relationships with old friends.
- a year of change, both good and bad.
- I meet someone and fall in love hard.
- I say goodbyes.
but also hellos.
- I change.
and grow up.
It is time I say goodbye to 2009. Bittersweet moments - they will forever be memories.
- I don't update my blogs as much as I'd like.
- I publish three novels in a row and get sick just as much because of the deadlines (and cheer three times louder when they hit the shelves).
- I go through an emotional turmoil.
- I grow a back bone and then some.
- I make adult decisions.
- I decide to go in search of myself and discover a lot of things in the process.
- I try to figure out what it is I want in life, relationships, career, and myself.
- I let other people know that what we expect is sometimes unexpected.
- I break hearts and get my heart broken over and over again.
but then trying to love like I've never been hurt before.
- I finally decide deadlines aren't worth it and that I need to create my own pace. Thus, the long absence and the break.
- I gain weight
and take up tennis lessons. and stop.
- I don't meet a lot of new people but maintain relationships with old friends.
- a year of change, both good and bad.
- I meet someone and fall in love hard.
- I say goodbyes.
but also hellos.
- I change.
and grow up.
It is time I say goodbye to 2009. Bittersweet moments - they will forever be memories.
Senin, 16 November 2009
Glam Girls Unbelievable - coming soon this December!
Buku keempatku akan segera terbit di awal Desember 2009 :) judulnya Glam Girls Unbelievable, instalasi ketiga serial Glam Girls, versi Maybella.
Ini sinopsisnya:
In the world of popularity, being perfect is everything. Kamu adalah pusat perhatian, jadi pastikan kamu memang layak mendapatkannya.
Kamu juga harus mengerti, tujuan tampil sempurna adalah demi dibenci. Di dunia kami, dibenci dan dicemburui adalah sebuah pujian. So true, Dahling! Orang-orang seperti tak bosan bergosip tentang Paris Hilton, tetapi apa yang dia dapat di kemudian hari? Kontrak reality show sendiri dan signature perfume yang dijual di seluruh dunia.
Cantik itu wajib hukumnya dan kesempurnaan adalah segalanya. Pastikan kau selalu tampil memesona dan bungkam mereka dengan senyuman terbaikmu. Satu kesalahan kecil saja - voila! - bibir-bibir ber-lipgloss itu pasti ramai menghabisimu...
**
:D
Senin, 09 November 2009
Months After
Soo.. what's up with me?
Haven't been online for nearly weeks. Been busy with this new project, which turns out pretty well because next month my fourth book will hit the stores. It's the latest installment to a series by Gagas Media, my beloved publisher.
Other things that revolve around my life lately are work, work, work. I'm more immersed in my job lately.
A lot has changed. Not just my relationship status. Not just matters of the heart, dreams, obsessions, needs and desires. Not just my personality. EVERYTHING changes - my life changes, hopefully to the better.
Overall, I am doing okay. I am happy. I am alive.
It feels good to be back :) how are you guys?
Haven't been online for nearly weeks. Been busy with this new project, which turns out pretty well because next month my fourth book will hit the stores. It's the latest installment to a series by Gagas Media, my beloved publisher.
Other things that revolve around my life lately are work, work, work. I'm more immersed in my job lately.
A lot has changed. Not just my relationship status. Not just matters of the heart, dreams, obsessions, needs and desires. Not just my personality. EVERYTHING changes - my life changes, hopefully to the better.
Overall, I am doing okay. I am happy. I am alive.
It feels good to be back :) how are you guys?
Jumat, 02 Oktober 2009
a small reminder
 | Rule of Thumb | for everyone |
write only what you like. what you want. what you love.
Looked back to what I wrote a couple of months ago.
Now I realized how wrong I had been.
Mistakes, mistakes.
You learn from them, don't you?
Kamis, 10 September 2009
Dapatkan Refrain di toko buku online (discount up to 25%)
Berhubung Refrain sudah masuk toko buku Jakarta dan sekarang sedang didistribusikan ke luar Jakarta, saya juga menemukan beberapa link toko buku online yang menjual Refrain, dengan harga diskon tentunya :)
Lebih mudah dan nggak perlu keluar rumah untuk beli hehehe. Berikut linknya (langsung klik di nama tokonya ya):
Selamat berbelanja, dan terima kasih jika kamu membeli Refrain :)
Lebih mudah dan nggak perlu keluar rumah untuk beli hehehe. Berikut linknya (langsung klik di nama tokonya ya):
Selamat berbelanja, dan terima kasih jika kamu membeli Refrain :)
Selasa, 01 September 2009
Meet Refrain - my third novel, now in stores :)
Aahhhhhh baru dapet kabar kalau novel baruku sudah duduk manis di Gramedia :) senangnya.
Meet my third book - Refrain.
Meet my third book - Refrain.
Ini sinopsisnya:
Tidak ada persahabatan yang sempurna di dunia ini, yang ada hanya orang-orang yang berusaha sebisa mungkin untuk mempertahankannya.
**
Ini bisa jadi sebuah kisah cinta biasa. Tentang sahabat sejak kecil, yang kemudian jatuh cinta kepada sahabatnya sendiri. Sayangnya, di setiap cinta harus ada yang terluka.
Ini barangkali hanya sebuah kisah cinta sederhana. Tentang tiga sahabat yang merasa saling memiliki meskipun diam-diam saling melukai.
Ini kisah tentang harapan yang hampir hilang. Sebuah kisah tentang cinta yang nyaris sempurna, kecuali rasa sakit karena persahabatan itu sendiri.
**
Novelku kali ini tone-nya lebih ceria :) I think it's the most cheerful book I've ever written. Hihihi. I really hope my readers will like (love!) it.
Kamis, 27 Agustus 2009
Pemenang Kontes #3 dan #4
Setelah telat seminggu *maap!!*, pemenang kontes TREAT YOURSELF dan TREAT A FRIEND diumumkan juga. Jreng jrengg.... drumrolls.
Pemenang kontes #3 alias TREAT A FRIEND adalah Regina yang ingin memberikan novel Ai kepada sahabatnya, Monica.
Pemenang kontes #4 alias TREAT YOURSELF adalah Lifang.
Kedua pemenang akan mendapatkan novel Ai yang sudah ditandatangani :) novelnya akan kukirim ke alamat masing-masing paling lambat minggu depan ya.. Selamattt!
*mikir ide baru buat kontes lain ahh* :P
Pemenang kontes #3 alias TREAT A FRIEND adalah Regina yang ingin memberikan novel Ai kepada sahabatnya, Monica.
Pemenang kontes #4 alias TREAT YOURSELF adalah Lifang.
Kedua pemenang akan mendapatkan novel Ai yang sudah ditandatangani :) novelnya akan kukirim ke alamat masing-masing paling lambat minggu depan ya.. Selamattt!
*mikir ide baru buat kontes lain ahh* :P
Senin, 17 Agustus 2009
Pemenang Kontes #1 dan #2
Berhubung kedua kontes sudah ditutup, saya akan mengumumkan pemenangnya :)
Kontes #1: FIND THE PERFECT TITLE
Novel ketiga saya sudah resmi dinamakan. Judul yang dipilih oleh penerbit adalah REFRAIN. Karena itu, pemenang kontes #1 saya pilih berdasarkan favorit dan yang memenuhi syarat ya :)
Pemenangnya adalah: Alexa Fia dari Jakarta, yang mengusulkan judul Dream on Your Song
Kontes #2: KISS AND TELL
Banyak yang sudah mengemail saya dengan kisah mereka.. fiuh, bingung memilih karena semuanya seru.. tapi karena harus memilih satu, pemenangnya adalah: Lyna dari Denpasar
Selamat untuk kedua pemenang... novel ketiga saya beserta 1 surprise akan dikirimkan ke alamat masing-masing. Pemenang akan dihubungi via email. Karena novel ketiga belum terbit, hadiah baru bisa dikirim setelah saya mendapatkan bukunya dari penerbit (maaf ya nggak bisa langsung..).
Terima kasih buat semua yang udah berpartisipasi yaa.. dan kontes TREAT A FRIEND juga TREAT YOURSELF masih berlangsung sampai tanggal 20 Agustus lhoo :)
Kontes #1: FIND THE PERFECT TITLE
Novel ketiga saya sudah resmi dinamakan. Judul yang dipilih oleh penerbit adalah REFRAIN. Karena itu, pemenang kontes #1 saya pilih berdasarkan favorit dan yang memenuhi syarat ya :)
Pemenangnya adalah: Alexa Fia dari Jakarta, yang mengusulkan judul Dream on Your Song
Kontes #2: KISS AND TELL
Banyak yang sudah mengemail saya dengan kisah mereka.. fiuh, bingung memilih karena semuanya seru.. tapi karena harus memilih satu, pemenangnya adalah: Lyna dari Denpasar
Selamat untuk kedua pemenang... novel ketiga saya beserta 1 surprise akan dikirimkan ke alamat masing-masing. Pemenang akan dihubungi via email. Karena novel ketiga belum terbit, hadiah baru bisa dikirim setelah saya mendapatkan bukunya dari penerbit (maaf ya nggak bisa langsung..).
Terima kasih buat semua yang udah berpartisipasi yaa.. dan kontes TREAT A FRIEND juga TREAT YOURSELF masih berlangsung sampai tanggal 20 Agustus lhoo :)
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